standing in the way of control

firstly, i guess merry x-mas to everyone that celebrates it.

and secondly... sorry for not really keeping up the blog. where have i been you might ask? go on... ask me..

well, i have been working and earning the mad money at my place of employment. i say that because recently we got a letter with our payslips that saying any facebookers, myspacers, bloggers etc.. are not allowed to mention the company! we can get sued! so, no pictures... stories... or at least mentioning of where i work... the customers are all cunts at this time of the year...

ps. did i mention i hate christmas?

so, after saying all of that, i find myself here on christmas day- my 1 day off in like 12 days of work in a row- telling you all how much my life stinks at the moment.

i dont even know if i am making sense.

so, really havent been doing much with my life... i have my camera, but havent totally used it to its full advantadge.

currently listening to "the gossip" she has such a powerful voice. man, its intense. hmmm

i dunno... after so much shitty-ness i have decided to write a list of things i want to accomplish for next year. yes, it's christmas (doesnt even feel like it) and i am already thinking of things for new years resolution.

• keep going to the gym & see some more positive results..
• worm my way in to likims photo on the blankety blanks* and get a job!
• get driving lessons. at least once a month..
• save money for travelling overseas.. (maybe look into working visa)
• only buy DVDS when i have been to the gym..
  - that way, if i dont go.. i dont get a DVD..
• try and make myself happy.
  - i know that sounds soooo lame... but, i dunno.. everyone seems to be telling me that it is important!
• finish my 3rd script.
• make a short film.. about anything! it doesnt even have to be good!!!

* cant actually name her photo either...

so that is a small list of things i want to achieve. next year does bring me closer to some things that i have been totally looking forward to...

• the dark knight
• season 4 of LOST
• lust, caution (ang lee's new film)
• going to QLD for a little sunshine!
• work christmas party
• season 7 of 24..

pretty sad that the majority of them are TV/film related...

watched the extras christmas special. talk about OUCH! i was going to put the final monologue scene on here to show you just how emo it gets... but i decided to use this one which will get a laugh from pretty much anyone!

oh well.. anyways... gotta get ready for lunch and socialising and all that shit, even though i am so not even in the right mindset to do so.

is it wrong that i just want to go to the movies by myself all day long?