well... for those of you that i havent told, or didnt know, this last week i have been working on a short film for some dude that i found on the internet. it was unpaid work and i thought it would be a good experience. and... well, it turned out that it was ...
so, the story... is quite complicated - it's kinda like love actually meets crash meets queer as folk meets secret life of us... all very melbourne - shot mostly around st. kilda and inner city - it's a pretty ambitious script... tonnes of locations; beach, prison, airport ... it was pretty cool... but i got sick of it VERY QUICKLY!
i thought sometimes TAFE was bad... this was a nightmare. i mean, i dont want to get into it too much, but i was going to lose my mind. it was bloody unbearable sometimes. i feel bad bitching about it and all the shit that went down... they're all nice people and nothing wrong - but, it was just insane how poorly the production was organised. ok, i didnt show up one day ... but i let them know... and then, i dunno... i missed one day and it felt like i was outta the loop completely. so many awkward moments. i felt like an outcast.
this past week also saw ben deal with "inner demons" and some "personal issues" relating to certain relationships with certain people. i was having a shit week in general. being unemployed and working on something that i didnt like wasn't helping. but, it's funny... in a small way, this film has probably given me the chance i needed to feel "inspired" again to get off my arse and do something with my life. and it also made me realise that these "feelings" and "emotions" i had were just a thing... and i was obviously taking somethings for granted. and, all i can say is... im sorry... and i cannot believe it wasnt clear in the beginning. so, apart from the tears and snot that came from my system in the bucketloads; this week also saw the following...
- 1 hour appointment with centrelink - (back to square one really ie- dole)
- saw "the queen" with li-kim... it was incredible. and helen mirren is outstanding. (oscar)
- saw "blood diamond" with rob - it was okay... (not as great as everyone says it is)
- saw robs "fake tan" - quite impressive. (better than most ones i have seen)
oh.. and i have a bone to pick with the fucking homeless man that wanted to question my giving him money. how is this... what a fucking nerve!!!!
rob and i are sitting in mcdonalds and this bum comes up to us and asks us for money... some bullshit story how he moved to melb from tas and now he has no money ... blah blah... anyways, im in an alright mood and decide ok, i should have some money... and search the pocket of my bag for some coins... i thought i at least have a couple of dollars. anyways, after searching, i felt a little guily when i pulled out 20 cents... i offered him the money and said, "oh sorry... i thought i had more" and then he looks at me as if ... "i don't want your fucking 20 cents.." and then... he has the fucking balls/nerve to touch my bag and pad it down with his hands to see if i had any more money. it rattled and i thought, oh, shit... maybe i have been caught out... and then i quickly said ... "ohhh... keys.." and then.... again, had the fucking balls to roll his fucking homeless eyeballs at me...
WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU? I DON'T OWE YOU A FUCKING CENT CUNT!
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i was so fucking mad. what an asshole. seriously...
on lighter news, i have a job interview @ ACMI...
(if you dont know what it is... im already pissed off...) please click here for some knowledge >> http://www.acmi.net.au/index.htm
so, yes... i am getting a haircut and going to fucking blow them all ... (you forgot to say away) ahahaha but, i hope you are all wishing me best of luck for it ... im certainly in need of the money.
saturday night saw me eating @ vegie bar with carol ... i had a stir fry and she had risotto ... and then followed by max brenner waffles. we are both off to QLD in days and spending all our money... and, in 1 day - i spent $100 ... dvds, food... cds... fuck, i have issues.
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so ... back to this film ... im not going to say much else really, alot of it will be written into my new comedy tv pilot i am determined to film later on this year. so, keep an eye out for that...
i am pretty much over typing right now... so, im going to watch "planet earth" fucking good stuff...
MARRY ME BBC?
2 comments:
so...code was good. if only ur blog could actually honour what u have gone through. well at least i know the truth.
cheer up charlie.
qld awaits
The BBC and I are already engaged. So Tough. Find your own station. Perhaps you can try and chat up HBO?
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